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jump ship [Nov. 12th, 2009|03:16 pm]
Hey All,

I'm going ahead with the legions of others and jumping the LJ ship. I've been having a lot of issues with it lately... I can't make it look good without paying, and the whole fiasco with the ads I couldn't remove for days really ticked me off. So I'm off to a wordpress blog. It's in rough shape, but I'm going ahead with it. I'll still check in here to catch up, but won't be posting anymore. Kind of sad, really. Hope to see you at the new place:

http://jessivowels.wordpress.com/

Peace out LJ,

Jessi
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living in yarn, update [Sep. 8th, 2009|01:07 pm]
remember back at the beginning of the year when i was like, holy crap i have a lot of yarn? i decided to have a yarn freeze and try to knit my stash down, so that i could go to the sock summit (which was last month and which i didn't get to attend do to sign up time being in the middle of the night, italy-time). well, i've been feeling pretty good about my progress. i've been knitting from the stash, so much so that i was getting a little sick of it. so i decided, hey, it's been a little over 6 months...i'll count the yarn again. and guess what?

125.

yep. three balls less. and i didn't count the three balls i bought yesterday as a reward to myself for knitting so much from the stash. or the two balls i bought on impulse to make stripey socks for fall. and neither time was counting the handcart i have full of partial skeins.

i should have never counted it, seriously. i was feeling really good about it. i know what projects i'm wanting to tackle. i feel like i have a good mix of stash and new projects going right now. a good half of those balls are set aside for sweaters, which i'm waiting to start on until i hit 180 lbs. (i've lost 10 so far and am therefore 20 lbs away from this goal... so, three months-ish). 16 of the balls are for socks -- about 9 pairs worth. as far as yarn with no destination, i've only got a few balls.

so, the number may be the same, but the situation is better.

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is this a job? [Aug. 28th, 2009|04:43 pm]
in my last post i made mention of trying to treat being as a housewife as a sort of job. i generally try to do this, mostly just to keep myself on track; the illusion of consequence is necessary for productivity in my world. but the more i consider it a job, the more i get fed up.

being a housewife is often compared to being a nanny or a maid, but i think of it more along the lines of working at an applebee's. only, it'd be like working all the positions at applebee's simultaneously. for all of your waking hours. if you have breaks, they are to be spent on premises. when you go to sleep, it is on premises. if someone needs something in the middle of the night, guess what? you are on call. forever. you make enough to live on, but you rarely get good tips. your customers never tidy up after themselves and complain about the food. they angrily refuse to eat it, they send it back and demand something else. at best, they eat the food and leave you to clean up the mess in peace.

on the one hand, i do feel like this is a bit of an unfair characterization. i do leave the house alone to do whatever i please at least two evenings a week. my mom takes seb for several days to a week at a time every month at least once (during which time i usually just craft and do whatever, with maybe one workday's worth of housework thrown in there). but still, the parts about food and cleaning up feel pretty accurate. it's all the degrading subjugation of a food service job with the added benefit of it coming from people i love.

james frequently puts out some bullcrap about paying people to do these things for him if i weren't around, or doing such and me getting a job. here's the rub; aside from it being difficult to get a job right now, i don't really *need* to have one. and whatever job i managed to get would likely just cover the added expenses of laundry service, housekeeper, all meals eaten out, and childcare. i really don't understand why i should go and work all day so that i can pay someone to do something i previously had the time and energy to do myself, just so that someone doesn't have to man-up and act respectful toward their wife.

the thing is, i am not a waitress. i think occasionally, as no one is tipping me for dinner every night, other people should bus the table. i don't mind to do the laundry; i do mind picking up everyone's clothes from all around the house everyday. even if we hired a laundry service, the one behavior i'm asking people around here to do regularly would still need to be learned and accomplished! additionally, i am not comfortable with the class issues behind hiring service people. if i don't like to be treated this way, why would i think it's fine to do if i'm paying people? if i have enough money, i don't have to teach my kid to pick up his crap? if i can afford it, i never have to learn the simple self-discipline involved in leaving things as i have found them? and if i did get a job, i would still be expected to be the one responsible for all of these tasks -- i would just have leave to hire someone. and would i be happy with a life without homecooked food, where my house was looked after by strangers and sat empty for most of the day, where i didn't have time make the many of the objects of day to day life for myself?

this sounds like a screed against james, it's really not. i think that as far as most husbands go, james is certainly trying and at least gets somewhere close to seeing where i'm coming from. i value the work i'm doing. i understand that some aspects of it are not enjoyable and i try to suck it up and get through those. there are so many aspects of homemaking that i really do enjoy -- the cooking, the decorating, gardening, having time to craft and be creative, and generally being able to take care of my family all make me really happy. i guess it's just sometimes, more often than i'd like, i get so bogged down with the mundane aspects of it, and i often feel like no one -- here, at least -- cares or feels like what i do is good enough. it's hard to keep feeling like what you're trying to accomplish is valuable if you feel like the people around you don't value it, ya know?
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procrastination [Aug. 25th, 2009|02:37 pm]
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every day i get a blissful 2-3 hours free time in the middle of the day when seb takes a nap. i know that most people's jobs' do not afford them this much time to do whatever they please, and as i try to treat my role as homemaker as a sort of job, i usually try to stay busy. it's not always in "important" ways -- making myself cook, do laundry, or attempt yard work during nap time doesn't usually happen. but i do try to avoid dicking around the interwebs or watching tv, for example.

lately i have a damn lot of knitting that needs to get done, but it's starting to be a pain in my ass. i've set myself the goal of finishing my current projects before starting my anthropologie swap project, but i'm lacking the motivation. i have a serious case of startitis as well -- but only for projects for myself. after the antro swap, i've got two pair of socks and a reconstructed sweater in the wings, at least. i'm really, really wanting to make a few pairs of earrings, as well. blarg! not enough time in the day, especially lately. nap time seems to just flit away.

and finally, a garden update. here was my harvest, at peak:



this was collected over two days in august. clockwise from top left we have jalapenos, roma, black krim, and italian heirloom tomatoes, okra, mega zucchini, and green beans. more was flowing in beforehand and more has flowed in afterward. i'm dealing with a lot of produce here, my friends!

since then i've made a few adjustments to the garden. we had a rainy summer which was good for mold, so i had to rip out a sad tomato and two effed up zucchinis. in their place i've planted two kinds of carrots. i ripped out all the basil (which was getting woody stems and, thus, a little too anise-y to  be good anymore) and turned it into pesto cubes. i planted a row of shell peas and a row of swiss chard. in the next few days i'll probably throw in some kale and mustard, as well as any fall veggies that catch my eye. i've actually never done fall veg before (save for some swiss chard that thrived well into winter without ever bolting about two years ago) so i need to look into this a little.
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the riviera and bologna [Aug. 14th, 2009|03:45 pm]
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you thought i'd forgot about this, huh? nope, just lazy, as usual.

so, we left from paris on a midnight train, goin' anywhere... well, actually, it was like a 10 o'clock train and it was going to antibes, in the south of france. details, details. we got in early in the morning and wandered around, pissy, sweaty and hot, for almost an hour, stupidly lost. i am not a conservative person, but as i hate being lost and wandering around as such, i tend to be really, really, conservative about finding my way. i follow posted signs NO MATTER WHAT, for example. in this case, that was pretty stupid and got us lost. oops.

so eventually we made it to juan les pins and our hotel. i don't have a lot of pictures from juan les pin, but it was nice, small, and pretty quiet. we went straight to the beautiful beach and i swam and floated around, whilst cheryl "had a paddle," as i am fond of saying. i soon concluded that mediterranean = best. sea. ever.

the second day, we went on a day trip. bus ridiculousness ensued, but eventually -- in spite of asshole french bus drivers -- we made it to st. paul. it was scenic as fuck.



st. paul, awesome mideaval walled city. it dates to the 13th century.



display chair from some antique shop, looking all scenic. strange thing about st. paul was it had GREAT shopping. it was all art galleries and quirky boutiques, but they were really good. i got the best pair of shoes ever here.


door draped in jasmine. everything in the damn riviera was draped in jasmine and man, it smelled GOOD.


pigeons!

near the villiage was the fondation maeght, a cool modern art museum. we had to pretty much hike almost a mile to get there and it was kind of up in a forest. i think we were both thinking it was a jessi map-fail until we actually bought out entrance tickets.



this is cheryl in the miro garden. it cost extra to take pictures, so i guiltily only snapped the one. but this was a damn cool museum, people, and a pretty good end to a sweet day,

we were only in the riviera for a few days, and we mostly *actually* vacationed -- relaxed, took naps, sat at the beach, ate cherries. from here we went on to bologna, and let me tell you, that was no easy feat.

FRENCH RAIL STRIKE!

those mothereffers. basically, if we were going to get to bologna on that day, we had to get the hell out of france and catch the train in italy. after an epic local bus tour from antibes to menton, we finally got our asses into italy with only minutes to spare. awesome itialian old lady got us on the train, though, and we made it! once in bologna, there was more epic bus fail, and we ended up very specifically given directions into the middle of freaking nowhere. we solicited help from two nice looking guys, from whom we reluctantly got a ride to the hotel street. it is a testament to the bullshittitude of that effing day that we took that ride. when we got to the hotel, it looked like this:



only dark, and with no lights. but it was actually a really nice hotel, and the lady who worked there felt bad for us, and microwaved us some risotto. they had a fantastic breakfast by the by.

so, bologna. well, i have to say, i didn't care for it. there wasn't much to do, what i did find sort of interesting closed before we found out about it, it's not spectacularly beautiful or anything, and, well, i was in a shitty mood. the "day which shall not be named" had taken it's toll and bologna certainly wasn't putting forth a lot of effort to woo me, in the manner of paris, for example. (it was a little pretty, in spots, though... to be fair).



in the end, i decided to stop being a pooper and go get a coffee from the Caffe degli Orefici, as recommended by The Splendid Table's Lynne Rosetto Kaspar.

And can I just say, THANK YOU JESUS -- I mean, Lynne -- this was the best coffee I have ever tasted, oh my god, and holy jesus. Trancedentally good. Rich, chocolately, not a trace of bitterness, and taken with only the tiniest amount of sugar. SO GOOD.

So then, we just ate. We had gelato. We had rice balls. We checked out the various foodstuffs on display and the little old Italian ladies shopping for them.





We took a tiny break to go to H&M, and then we went to dinner. On the way we saw this little weirdness:



Apparently Bologna used to have lots of canals, in the manner of Venice. Now they run underground, except in this little spot. And in the wall in an alley is a tiny window which looks out over the canal. So, dinner was both amazing, and terrible. The food was possibly the best I'd ever had, but my enjoyment was dampened by Cheryl starting to barf, and then by some bitchface stealing her 20€ and causing a big ridiculous scene by her continual lying about it. I prefer to block those bits from my memory, because when all was said and done there was no way the situation was going to end well for everyone. But as I said, the dinner was amazing and the restaraunt looked like an Anthropologie set.



up next, florence!

i'll probably do an actual "my life" post here soon, too.


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paris part 2 [Jul. 21st, 2009|02:53 pm]
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now for some more photos. paris is very atmospheric, especially in the center. i was vaguely obsessed with this metro entrance. i didn't take this picture the first time we went through it, but instead mentioned wanting to go back several times and eventually doing so, just to get this pic. many, many times i was heard to say, "man, i wish i had my real camera!"



on one of our long walks through the city to see the things that needed to be seen, we stumbled across this statue to joan of arc. having read mark twain's brilliant account of her life (and been very affected by it) not long before this trip, i was really excited to find this unexpectedly. and i totally cried.



the best thing about france was probably the food. paris was a pretty expensive place, so we ate at convenience stores a lot.



i can't say it was much of a sacrifice. also, it made us feel all crunchy and parisian. cheryl got a pretty funny photo of me with a baguette poking out of my bag... whenever she and i manage to swap photos 'll have to a special post of photos of me in europe making silly faces.

and now for my favorite portion, the sweets. portrait of a young pastry about to be eaten:



i can't resist anything with rose petals. they taste delicious and make you feel absurdly decadant.

the above pastry was from laduree. here is just one of the many trays that lined the counters in this awesome, old fashioned bakery.



and finally, macarones! my saving grace in france. feet hurting? macaron. can't figure out where the hell we're going? macaron. too many assholes in a row? macaron!



the first day we were in paris we had a hell of a time buying metro tickets. like, it got ridiculous and took more than half an hour. everytime we thought we could finally buy metro tickets another challenge presented itself... card machine does not work, okay, find atm... or, find map, then find atm, get money, oh crap, bill acceptor broken.... finally i was like, screw this and i bought a ginormous macaron, as i'd heard they were good. so i got the small change and delicious mouth-bliss stress releif all in one.

next, the riviera, a place which, over-hyped though it may be, is not actully over*rated* at all.
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trip part one: paris. [Jul. 15th, 2009|02:57 pm]
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as you know, a little over a month or so ago i got back from a vacation to france and italy. i have been very remiss on posting any details (mainly because i am such a picture slacker). so, i will remedy this now. i guess i'll try to do four parts: paris, the riviera, bologna and florence, and rome. so, first things first.

the first day we arrived was a truly ridiculous day. we hardly slept on the plane; in particular, i didn't sleep pretty much at all. we got into town at 10 and, of course, couldn't check in until 2. i was unfit for human contact but we trudged on anyways. we saw many scenic things, most of which are foggy to me now... but i do remember thiking they were nice, and generally what they looked like. we saw nortre dame:



my favorite part was the benches you see under the trees in the background here:



where i napped for an hour or two. then we got too cold . eventually we returned to the hostel, were able to go to our room, and promptly slept forever.

the next thing i remember doing was going to versailles, which i embarrassingly cannot stop pronouncing ver-sayle-z (thanks lexington!). i frequently would wander over to the open windows and gaze out at my estate and think,



gah! people, get off my lawn.

we wandered around here for a long time. we took a bazillion pictures:



here we are in the hall of mirrors. above our heads are about 500 chandeliers that i could not be sussed to upload the picture of... sorry. but, it was impressive.



and some square trees. aside from really liking this picture visually, i think a half mile of meticulously pruned tree hedges sums up france quite nicely.

and then there was country cottage disneyland,



you know how sometimes, when a very spoiled little girl likes to play dress up or house, their parents will buy them, like, some uber-twee cosy cottage that costs a bazillion dollars, because nothing is too good for their little princess? well, this is how a *real* princess throws down.



she builds a whole damn country village (the houses in which have calla lillies and tulips growing on the thatched roofs), complete with mill, several gardens, working dairy and creamery, and a few acres of ridiculously beautiful wildflowers. oh, and a pond with swans and royal ducks. redonkulous.

and... okay, i lied about the four parts. i've been at this entirely too long so far, so i'll finish up the paris portion tomorrow. maybe it will be four sections, two parts each? we'll see.


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links [Jul. 15th, 2009|01:20 pm]
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today i stumbled across two really awesome websites. the first is g-maps pedometer , which i was able to use to figure out the mileage, elevations, and supposed calories burned for a few of my most common bike routes. i'm not sure how useful this really is, but as a motivational tool, at least, it's very handy.

the other site i found was bake it pretty , a baking supply shop for your domestic hipster. they have a lot of things i had been looking for (like jumbo icing tips and a killer selection of packaging for sweets) and a few things i didn't know i was looking for but completely needed (magical forest cookie cutters anyone?).

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re: made waffles [Jul. 12th, 2009|12:40 pm]
the brunch went well. i really didn't end up needing as much waffle batter as i made, but it was great, actually, because now i have a freezer with quite a lot of waffles in it all ready for me for the week. narm.

i felt in the end plenty of people came (sarah, erik, and mike... more than that and it might have been too many, what with seb taking up the space of three people with his typical tazmanian-devil-tornado-like pattern of movement). and i wasn't rushed on anything, which is what i was anticipating with some dread last night. next time i might make the waffles ahead of time and toast them, but for convenience and because i think they would have been better a little crispier than they turned out.

and my house is pretty freaking clean... dishes cleaned, tables wiped, floor swept only an hour or so later. i am clearly a housekeeping ninja. maybe i will start making a wee habit of vegan brunch, since i think waffles may be my new obsession, and it was nice having friends over randomly on a sunday morning.
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made waffles [Jul. 11th, 2009|11:34 pm]
i am having brunch tomorrow at 10. you are probably invited, i you could come by. i gots a lot of waffle batter in my fridge, just in case... but i think in the end not to many peeps are going to stop in tomorrow. oh well, more waffles for me.

sometimes i think this is just not the life for me... that i'd do much better all on my own. and then other times i like my life a lot and the thought of being on my own seems horrifying. i waver pretty regularly and extremely between the two, among other opposite feelings. it's getting old. (this is brought on by complete family cooperation fail on the brunch... they really shouldn't get any food at all, i tell ya).

it's too late and i feel lonely. i should probably go to bed instead of exacerbating it with interwebs.
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